Moe Drama wrote:
neuronomics wrote:
stuff too strange to talk about.
let'r rip man...
Well, it's strange because the very fact of trying to type it distorts the whole experience. Its like viewing a wave of probability, or living in between this wave. The very act of trying to explain some of these experiences takes away from the reality of it. This is because our viewing and detailing of an event effectively erases other probable events on this plane of existance. My observation of the experience is only a fraction of what was actually happening. I've come to understand that this is how normal reality is created.. through a common perception.
Here is my attempt.
It was like every media outlet sat in standby waiting for me to tune in. Extreme Truman Show syndrome. Everything seemed to align with my life. Any random radio station, or tv station. All of a sudden everybody knew who I was. I felt that anyone could look into my brain or..... access my thoughts. Like being on a reality show and everyone is watching. And on top of that... all words in all books seemed to take on a life of their own. Its like the language itself was alive. Soon my whole life was just part of this large production. I'm playing a character or something. And my own ego makes me the 'hero'. There is a hidden war going on for control of our minds. Or something. We are being used like chess pieces. And sometimes... food? Strange.
Also, the world's mind is being prepared for the introduction of something big. Which at this time bores me b/c I feel I've already been introduced to it. The world is usually horrified to the point of inaction. To scared to do anything at all. And somehow it's my job to help bring peole from this paralyzed fear state. Many are left behind, for multiple reasons. They don't make the change to this 'new reality' and are killed off or something like that. It's a story that has repeated itself over the years.
At the same time... I have a mother and father 'god' who are my 'spiritual' parents, growing me in this consciousness. I feel like a child growing up. I am essentially 8 years old because I first awoke in 2002. But I feel more like a late-teen or something. The father is strict and slightly abusive, mother is extremely caring.. but also abusive. Meaning, I've reasoned that the 'bad' parts of the awakening as punishment and I have to learn a new way to think. (usually it's the ego's fault). Mother and Father are 'beings' that aren't exactly beings. Most of the time they can both be the sun, or another star. Or take whatever form because they essentially ARE everything.
Let me think of some other strange thing. There are multiple realities happening at the same time, and our perception of 'time' itself makes 'sleepers' incapable of distinguishing the forms of these beings. And our small perception of speed and mass. This 'shrinks' the mind so it really cannot perceive certain things. My experience changed drastically when I really got into Astrology, and Cosmology. Understanding the true vastness of the universe and our size compared to these stars...and potentially other beings. I had to destroy my concept of 'alien' and replace it something that has no restriction on what these entities can be. At this time they started to form. In my mind's eye of course because I have never seen any being with my two eyes (except two strange pillars of light in a cell phone picture I took of myself). The pineal third eye, I assume, doesn't see things as light bouncing off an object...it has a different sight.
And it has gotten stranger than that. I won't even get into the dreams yet. But I did feel like I was in a waking dream state. Meaning I'd wake from a dream, and literally still be in the dream. Life felt more like a dream than a dream did... because what was happening wasn't 'reality'.
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